Still Not Perfect

I’m a perfectionist so writing here is going to challenge me. The fact is I don’t like to do anything until I can do it perfectly. That’s why it has taken me 2 weeks to put my first post up. I guess I just couldn’t do it until I had everything laid out like I liked it (and I still have improvements in mind, but I decided I need some traffic first).

This perfectionist tendency means that until my ideas are completely formed I don’t usually express them. This is good most of the time because it keeps my foot out of my mouth. But, sometimes it’s bad because others can’t help me develop my ideas. So, I’m going to try to step out of my box and post sometimes when I don’t have everything already thought out and perfected (not that I ever get anything perfected anyway).

That said, I’ve decided that I need to contribute something to the information treasure-trove that is the internet. I’ve been an internet user for about 10 years now, but have mostly been an information consumer. I’ve rarely posted on forums, never written articles, and basically just lurked. I’m an information free loader. Not that the internet cares, that’s what it’s for after all – free sharing of information. I guess I just felt like it was time to start producing content rather than just consuming it.

As a programmer I’ve always waited for my ground-breaking idea. It hasn’t come yet. I’ve had good ideas, but they were always just based on someone else’s greater idea. So maybe writing original, ground-breaking software isn’t what I’m cut out for. Maybe I’m just supposed to write good extensions for other people’s inventions. But, maybe I can spur on some ideas in other people by writing about my own. I intend to write about my projects here, but not just about them. I also want to write about media, arts, politics, government, love/marriage/fatherhood (soon), and whatever other inspiration hits me.

I need an outlet. Hopefully this can be an effective one. The fact is there just isn’t much frustration you can get out writing code. Sometimes you have to express in plain English. That’s not to say that I’m frustrated with everything. Basically I just want to write, and I want feedback. That’s what this is going to be about. I’m going to write about what’s on my mind, and hopefully that will inspire a couple comments out of the readers (maybe if I get really good I can get a lurker to give me a comment or two).

So, wish me luck. I know the ideas are there and I know I’ve got things to say. It’s just that it’s hard for me to say them until I’ve got them perfected, and that never happens. So I just need to suck it up and start saying stuff – just start writing.

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